Is this Asperger's Syndrome?
Before I seek an official diagnosis from a doctor, I’m looking for some opinions. Someone told me that she thinks I have Asperger’s Syndrome. I would love for a professional or experienced person to tell me what they think before I start hunting for a doctor. I don’t want to go through all of that for no reason.
I’m a 25 year old female. I have never been able to look people in the eyes. I have never had friends. As young as I can remember I have been awkward. I most of the time would play with my stuffed animals and my cat. This is still the case. Most people think I’m too strange to befriend, or are put off by my bluntness. I’m nothing like the other girls my age, and I know it. I wish I knew why!
I have rocked since I was able to sit up in my crib. The only friend I had in elementary school made me keep it a secret. Sometimes when I’m stressed out I flick my fingers, snap, or flap my hands a little. I love to twist and untwist rubber bands over and over again. Repetative things like that are soothing. To block out the world I wear headphones and put one song on repeat for the whole day. This is soothing, also. If my routine is disrupted it causes a panic attack. I’m a horrible communicator, and sometimes when I have trouble getting across to people I melt down or get angry. Little annoyances can throw me into a tantrum, but I have better control over that than I used to.
Light is very painful to my eyes, some more than others, but at the same time I have low light blindness. Certain textures or feelings drive me CRAZY! Some sounds agitate me so much that I have to leave the room. They don’t bother anybody else that bad. My affect is not flat, and I can be very emotional. Just not emotionally competent. I scored a 36 on the AQ.
I might add that I have suffered abuse as a child and an adolescent in the foster care system. So sometimes I don’t know if this is Asperger’s or PTSD. Maybe it’s both! What do you think?
I’m not looking for a diagnosis. I’m looking for your opinion.
Most of what I listed are things that have been pointed out by others. I did not realize I did it until I was made fun of for it.