Well all growing up I loved animals and I still do! I had a special bond with each of my pets. While a teenager I got a horse and took excellent care of it. I got quite into the equestrian thing. Horses were like therapy to me. But then my horse colliced. It broke my heart. I was devastated. I hardened my heart and never wanted to get that attached to an animal again.
I also have some mental issues. I have a history of destroying property and hurting my younger sister once (not severely) when I was around 12. But then I got on meds and it was like night and day! I did not have those physical aggression issues anymore. My dad and his family have a history of mental issues as well so I guess genetics played a factor.
So anyways 9 years later I decided I wanted to get off my meds. I was sick of being dependent on a medication. I slowly went down and then later completely went off of them. I did this on my own. I did not have health insurance so therefore no doctor or counselor.
While either not taking the correct dosage or not being on my medication I committed animal abuse. I flushed some unwanted live fish. I was irresponsible and would get pets only to rehome them and get new pets. I was being obsessive.
I had a couple cats but I had to move to a familys place. No cats were allowed due to allergies. I really wanted to keep the cats. I asked this family member but they said no. I could not keep them. I did not know anyone who wanted cats. I did not know craigslist existed at the time.
So not wanting the cats to be euthanized at the local pound, I let them go in a good neighborhood. There was a stream near by and outdoor cats around.
But afterwards I felt so bad! I was worried noone would find them or that they would starve or get run over. I went back to find the cats the next day. I did find the one and was so happy. I did the right thing and took him to the pound. The other one I never could find.
I do not know what I was thinking. I was not thinking straight! I did not realize how serious animal abaondonment is. I needed to grow up and start respecting life. I was a immature 21 year old and had mental issues but still. It was very wrong. I felt so guilty. I thought about suicide. I felt I was a horrible scum of a person.
I decided I needed to change big time. I got back on my meds and take them responsibily. Donated to the ASPCA. I started small as far as taking care of life goes. I got some new fish and took care of them successfully. I promised myself never to flush live fish or abandon again! I also promised myself to never get pets without committing to them for life!
I never could bring myself to get another pet other than fish. I thought I did not deserve them.
But one day this cat walked into my apartment while the door was open for a minute. She has a microchip but her owners have not contacted the microchip company. It has almost been two weeks and tomorrow they can transfer ownership to me. She was abandoned and needs a home. I am falling in love with her and think I am ready to be a good, responsible pet owner. I know I can do it and I have my husband to help me if needed. I am looking for opinions though. Though I do not know if I can part with her. I am opening my heart up again and learning alot. I hardened my heart after having to put my horse down. But I realize its okay to love an animal so much again.
This seems like a second chance to me. She literally came into my life and needs a home. All the no kill shelters in my city are full.
Please be respectful. Thanks!
Yes it is true! She has a home again microchip. They have tried calling the owners multiple times. One number was disconnected and the other number noone answered. I even took her to two different vet offices to douple check her microchip number!!
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